Gosh, reading just now proved my point further... Time passes by really fast, but things change so much. It's kinda scary how things change, for better or for worse.
The way things sound for you Mako, I only wish you well and the best. Hard times do come ahead and it really hurts inside, and the amount of depression is absolutely overwhelming. I can maybe give you some advice. Hmm... I don't know if I should be saying this, but I might as well.
Javid and I have left our own ways a week ago or so. He and I are... "fine," but it was just so many reasons and factors in real life as to why we had to depart our separate ways. We still hold something within each other truly inside, but it hurts so much to have to be a loong distance apart. Not only that, I've been very depressed lately from the amount of stress at school.. And the fact that I got REALLY sick.. I fainted from not eating enough, not getting enough sleeep, and now I have some iron deficiency disorder, and im much weaker unfortunately... Thank God i'm not anorexic though.. But the
majority was from.. well the relationship between him and I. I worried him too much, and I kept treating him badly because of how my mood changed, and he truly cared so much as to let me go so I can recover. Well not only me, but him too. It hurts a LOT to have a relationship like that, especially since it was truly special to both of us. It's hard to accept the fact that him and I are "going our separate ways until our paths cross again." And also that I've talked with him everydayy, and that we truly care and love each other to a very VERY great extent. He meant the world to me, and when he let go, I was even more depressed than ever before.
The point is, even when in times when it reaally hurts so muuch that you just feel like... Doing something you shouldn't do, something foolish... Or be sleeping or being alone in your room the majority of the time, with absolutely no friends around you, or no friends to be with you at your greatest time of need.... Everything does get better. You can only go up from theere. Like you said, maybe it's best to be getting to college now. At these times, like mine, the only thing really left to do is to study for my greater future. That's all that's actually left, asides from what I hold precious to me, my family and friends of course. But when I move out, then it really is the only thing left, and it'll lead me farther in life.
Kara, we haven't talked in so long, like I can't believe you're still in the Pokemon series.

I'm into the old Pokemon, I can't bear to play the new one. I hardly game now. Every once in a while, I'll play the original Halo, maybe The Elder Scrolls: Morrowind, or Civilization III. And also, I can't believe you're 18 already; I'm still 16, but I'm gonna be turning 17 soon (2 more days!

). And tbh, I almost forgot about my birthday.

On a separate note, Rare's games don't really do it much for me anymore. I still like the old stuff from Rare, but the new stuff (not including Viva Pinata) I can't stand. I bought Nuts and Bolts and it was unfortunately disappointing. It didn't last all that long, and I wish it were funner and the characters had more of their charm to show. It's also disappointing that people like Grant Kirkhope are getting dropped at Rare. Really, it's as if Rare's time has come.

Oh well, they were great anyhow.
oh my gosh, plus, I can't make the time with the RIDICULOUS amount of homework. I have at average 4-7 hours of homework each day. EACH DAY. I can't believe I enjoy and love to challenge myself, but there isn't much to do. My friends are a bunch of smarty-pants or either really silly, or both, but in the end, I can't hang out with the much, because again, it's the ridiculous amount of homework that just... Bleah. And I'm not even in university yet. My GPA right now is 3.5/4.0. I want to keep raising it..... That's really the only thing left to do, I don't want to ruin my GPA hehe.
On an additional note: Have fun clubbing Ross.

Don't do something too stupid though (although knowing you a bit, you'd do it LOL)